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maxdibert · 1 day ago

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I hate the excuse "Snape was only bullied bc he was into the dark arts and believed in blood purity" Nah man, most of the "hot" popular guys in my HS were racist as shit and watched liveleak execution videos on their phones in class and they sure as fuck didnt get bullied for being massive pieces of shit (or in any official trouble, "we cant do anything if you have no proof", fucking hell), but do you know who did get bullied and in trouble? The quiet "ugly" kids who were into innocuous stuff like anime or emo fashion and just wanted to be left alone. Getting bullied every day for no reason other than existing, and then getting punished when you finally break and lash out at the bullies once, while they get away with years of constant attacks on you and your friends.

I love Snape, because I see myself in him. Liking him tricked me into realising I didn't deserve what happened to me. I love all the people who stick up for his character, you're kind and understanding.

Love your blog, I've been going through reading all your posts and I couldn't help messaging, you write so well and it made me emotional. I hope you are well and have a wonderful day ❤️

That's a shitty excuse.

First, because canon doesn’t support it. Canon makes it very clear that James was the one who started the whole conflict. James, without anyone saying anything to him, approached Severus and mocked him for the first time on the Hogwarts Express during their first year. At that point, Severus hadn’t said anything about liking the Dark Arts, and James wasn’t born a Legilimens to magically know it. He simply thought he could butt into a conversation and make a shitty comment, and that was it. Canon also clearly establishes that when James stripped Severus in front of the whole school, it was because Sirius was bored, and his way of having fun was to corner “Snivellus” and publicly humiliate him. At no point are the Dark Arts mentioned. At no point is his association with Slytherins mentioned. The only one who brings it up is Lily, not James. This makes it very clear that James’s motive wasn’t ideological—he just enjoyed tormenting Severus because he liked having someone to take it out on. That’s it.

And second, that’s still not an excuse to torment someone in a position of inferiority. I’ve met plenty of people with garbage mindsets throughout my life, and I’ve never beaten them up for it—unless we were at a protest and they started getting violent. I have friends who were very popular in school, with leftist and combative mentalities, and it never crossed their minds to go after a marginalized kid, no matter how shitty their beliefs were, and publicly humiliate them. It’s ridiculous. Social justice isn’t about being a rich, spoiled brat abusing your social and economic power to pretend you care about people’s rights by using violence against someone who clearly can’t defend themselves or doesn’t have the same opportunities and tools you do. Social justice is about real actions with real impacts on society. So even if James’s excuse had been that—which it wasn’t—it would still have been just as wrong. And if anyone thinks otherwise, they’re either sociopaths or literal children who still don’t have hair on their legs and have no clue how the world works.

I wasn’t bullied in school, but I have met plenty of James Potter types throughout my life, and they’ve always disgusted me. White men, with money and resources, who think they can do and say whatever they want and treat people however they please. The ones who make “jokes” that aren’t jokes, the ones whose jokes have repulsive undertones. Guys I absolutely would punch in the face. Guys I’ve had to deal with all my life because, at the end of the day, they’re just gutless bags of shit.

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darabeatha · 2 years ago

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#;ooc #ooc #/I SEE THESE ON DASH AND THEY LOOK FUNNY #/not adding ritsu and hakuno bc i cant add a lot of points rip #/spiritually they join ur adventure okok #/PERSONALLY- at first i was like; ok if im going on an adventure then ody or jason would be the most fitting #then i quickly remember ody's journey being a disaster and same with jason ☠️#HONESTLY- THEY ARE ALL A DISASTER IN SOME WAY-#and i cant go by love alone bc i love all of them #TOO MUCH I CANT PICK!!!#there are too many variables to think about-#but if i went with Constantine it would be like a fairy tail bc he has a horse 😳👉👈#but tezca has his -insert model- car with fake jaguar print seats-#and c.amazotz has his fuzzy arms if its cold 🤧🤧🤧#ody has his huge giganormous badoonkazoonkeroongas so u have a pillow there #j.ason has the argo at least- he had to have a positive ok #what if with ash u just get on his weapon and go rolling down somewhere like some huge hamster-#v.lad might not have any means of transportation but- he is so 😳😳😳 that it doesnt matter; i would go walki n g #with Charlie we are gonna get sidetracked; he'll get shocked by something and his attention goes 🏃💨#d.aybit would make a bonfire something tells me he knows how to do camping #like;; he would pull the most random skills and ur like; why does this dude know thissss #the good side of joining mocte: he has these huge guns and warriors around so protection wise ur good #bad side: if u happen to find any comfortable place; ur sleepong outside #hes getting the best of the best; the spare things go to u (maybe; hopefully)

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spicyraeman · 3 months ago

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#kinda stuck in a limbo between da and bg3 rn #cuz veilguard was okay at best and hasn't really pulled me in as much as i wanted #but going back to bg3 doesn't feel great... like theres nothing there for me #i still love the game and lae and sh #but it feels like i have to enjoy them alone like im not allowed to be apart of the community #which i guess is pretty much all my fault bc i cant join servers and i have a really hard time talking to people #but that doesn't stop it from feeling like shit #idk hoping this feeling passes fast #dl

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puppppppppy · 1 year ago

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i feel like. theres designing a character with certain themes and motifs in mind, and then theres making a gijinka for the water bottle on my nightstand

#me when im the only person on the bus wearing a mask: i should make a furry plaguesona #its hard to explain bc. most of the time i try NOT to give my characters a 'strong' theme like making their whole design around #one thing like apples or even broad stuff like baking or cottagecore.. idk if its partly for flexibility or because i cant imagine them #making it their whole personality. not bc i find it cringe or overblown but more like ive learned to associate design with character depth #i had a cutesy uwu persona for most of highschool because i thought it would make me more. likeable? easy to remember? since #memorable character designs are easy to recognize. and one way of doing that is simplifying it with a theme or symbol so you form an #association. but since im a real person its exhausting keeping up that appearance all the time and denying myself things when they dont #fit my 'aesthetic' or 'theme.' i think ive grown past that bc i just collect stuff because i think it looks cool and dont let myself dwell #on how it might 'fit' with my image. but i cant help feeling bad doing it to my own characters bc it feels like im making them too one #dimensional. despite knowing that theyre not real and design alone doesnt reflect depth i cant help feeling like its wrong #despite that i love seeing motifs because it feels like it reflects the characters soul and paradoxically gives them depth. it makes them #interesting to look at too and honestly its pretty fun combining things that fall under a similar category when designing #i struggle find a balance between those two things #actually this reminds me of noelles christmas theme.. i dont remember her saying anything abt liking christmas despite a lot of #her design and character tying back to it. it makes me wonder if she would have feelings about that or doesnt think abt it too hard #or if its like a matching family shirts situation and shes just going along with it??#maybe i should just do whatever i want with my character designs since theyre not real and im thinking abt it too hard #although. this probably has something to do with deep seated identity issues huh #yapping #oc talk #oc

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scentofpines · 6 months ago

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please dont reblog "cute" or "funny" videos/pictures of animals when it takes like 0.5 seconds and a quarter ounce of empathy to tell that the animal is kept under bad conditions and/or distressed and/or abused. have some empathy and respect for other creatures my god

#every now and then posts cross my dash where i just feel sad bc at the very least the vid/pic of the animal is ambiguous but im often pretty #sure that its straight up mistreatment if not abuse #like (more or less) harmlessly teasing in animal until it snaps is not funny #emptying a box of balls on a staircase behind a deaf ferret is not funny just bc the ferret goes :O bc it got scared #a ray in a teeny tiny aquarium is not funny #a couple years ago there was this gif of a dog going around and the dog was CLEARLY suffering an epileptic seizure and it had like 100k+#notes of ppl being like “haha so funny”#i hate you #its not even that these ppl who think these are funny are all animal abusers but i just dont get how you dont question posts like that #ppl thinking its oh so cute and funny how a budgie that is kept ALONE in a tiny cage is interacting with a mirror #just pls question what you see #dogs that are so inbred they cant see/walk/breathe properly arent cute either btw they deserve love and kindness but by god stop breeding #them or i will come for you with a knife #personal

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moeblob · 8 months ago

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Anyway they can change between being tiny and human sized. And when they're tinier they can only be seen by the other fae or their selected humans. So if you just passed Noll on the street while Shavuli was perched on his shoulder chatting away you wouldn't see or hear her.

#my characters #a lot of the fae who are trying to get noll to pick a human take turns joining him as he wanders if he opts to be human sized #if he opts to be small and fly around none of them can actually find him to follow bc he does it precisely to be alone #and makes careful to avoid all of them when he dips #which furthers their friendly obsession with him being their void like where is he we lost him we gotta go bring him back from the abyss!#and hes just off on his own being crippled by anxiety at being a disappointment bc what if he isnt fun enough #absolutely unaware that all his friends are like we gotta go find him hes too good at this #hes going to win the game we have clearly set up to involve humans before he even recruits a human #cause he is TOO GOOD at slipping away ITS NOT FAIR we love him what a weird fae thats our lil guy!#noll really is just out there impressing all of his friends and not knowing hes impressing them bc hes too scared of being abandoned #and i was telling rae but when he does find the human he wants as his for the game #hes like ok so im gonna be honest here i turn into a big sword and you are definitely not going to be strong enough to carry me #and the human just like ok then pick someone else?#and hes like no no i cant you dont get it youre resourceful and im resourceful THEREFORE! i have an idea! just for us!#and then proceeds to shatter himself into shards basically #so that the human can have many smaller easy to control swords rather than one too big sword #and when all of the other fae see it they are absolutely delighted bc they didnt know he could do that! thats so cool! wow! they love him s #and he doesnt tell them that it actually really flippin hurts and being broken is agonizing but he wants to win so badly #anyway hello appreciate the void fae noll and his lil buddy shavuli who can turn into a spear C:#in her human form though she loves to wear hoodies instead of just like .... a skin tight suit with draping fabrics #she does wear biker shorts bc leggy.... she likes to have legs free #but she likes hoodies a lot

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nintendont2502 · 1 month ago

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spending more than a few days around your family and no one else truly does cause a certain type of madness. and baby they call me the joker

#ughhhh #travelling with other people after travelling solo is exhausting #wdym i cant just go do my own thing #what do you mean i have to spend this entire time doing shit other people want to do while i just kinda stand around awkwardly bc i dont #have anyone to talk to #what do you meani constantly have to mask more than i ususally do bc i cant look at all neurodivergent or queer or. unhappy. or bored.#or tired #im so tired.#ive got a couple of days in london alone thank fuck #but ugh idk #its just constant 'you should appreciate this!! not many people get to do this!!#cant have a real conversation. treated like a child the whole time. cant even swear.#misgendered and deadnamed the entire time but whats new there #constantly surrounded by people #constantly have to be performing happiness because otherwise youre called rude and told to snap out of it #cant talk to people because everyone interrupts or talks over you or doesnt hear you #cant go on your phone at all if theres anyone around. and theres always people around #constantly on the border of being overloaded at all times but you still have to talk to people !!!#its not even my family this sucksss #'come to england so you can sit in a pub for 3 hours while everyone drinks beer and talks to each other you cant join in on any conversatio #you cant do anything else and if you dont look happy to just be sitting there doing nothing then you get yelled at!! and maybe this is a lit #paid for my own tickets) but #im not. this isnt *fun*. im sitting around surrounded by someone elses family who dont know me and i dont know them #doing shit i actively hate all day #and i constantly have to be performing and acting like im habing a great time the entire time or im spoilt #even thouhg i. i paid for my own ticket here #man i couldve gone to japan again #'isnt england amazing!!" yeah idk it seems like it is!! too bad weve spent this entire goddamn time in some tiny village in the middle of #fuck ass nowhere going on walks that are identical to the ones at home #love to actually go experience it outside of the. one full day. i get in london

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rosykims · 3 months ago

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ive made my feelings on veilguard clear atp but i WILL say as a tragedy enjoyer act 3 really redeems sooooo much of it for me. esp having my rook-and-siblings worldstate bc let me tell u 3 rooks = 3 separate tragedies is DOING it for me rn. a bellaramancer a hardingmancer and a varricmancer walk into a bar. they all walk out single 😍

#tay plays datv #datv spoilers #datv #genuinely so funny that in my canon worldstate ashara is the ONLY one who gets an ~officially~ happy ending #tho she suffered more than jesus to get it lol #(and can i just say ''ashara goes to silent hill'' being her HAPPY ending is everything i have EVER wanted for the end of her arc kfgjfkg)#but elspeth is for sure dead in datv and probs alistair too bc in my head any alternative is worse #cillian is dead. anders in my heart is also dead #bellara dead. harding dead. varric dead. SHITS CRAZY LOL...... KIND OF LOVE IT TBH.......#< girls when theyre fucking sick in the head 😍#anyway despite the misery im actually kind of feeling like deia/matthas/evander get one of the happiest endings out of all of them #bc its like.... yes all their lovers are dead. but theyre forever bonded in love and theyre a family again and ALWAYS will be #theyll grieve but they wont be grieving alone. there is capacity for healing together #also. to me dragon age has always been about the inherently destructive nature of self mythology and people falling into legend #elspeth/cillian/ashara are all destroyed by it and thats why they cant exist in the world. they HAVE 2 die or go to silent hill superhell #deia/matthas/evander and the ONLY ones who remain PEOPLE after everything. just people. they can fade into obscurity if they want #or continue fighting the good fight - in a normal person way #whatever they pick the choice is ultimately up to them..which is a choice my other protags have never had as an option #anyway. as i said. this game goes so fucking hard when you're hallucinating 70% of it #oc: ashara #oc: elspeth #oc: cillian #oc: deia #oc: evander #oc: matthas

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professionaljester · 3 months ago

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love my bad mental health, love being suicidal all the time

#abc shut it #im tired of fighting it and trying to participate in life when it feels like i dont exist #love being lonely and then being told its due to my bad mental health so i pretend it doesnt affect me and i try and be myself #and no one likes me and i dont exist unless i remind people im a person so its kinda like #at a point where its not just suicidal ideation #its just a situation of /when/ and not if haha #ive been alive for 26 years and 20 of those have been exhausting as hell im ready to be done #exhausting and lonely and isolating im sick of it #i try and i try and my life doesnt get better or anymore worth living #and when i vent abt it i get told i need to try harder and im not trying at all and i need to stop being so depressed #its hard to not be depressed when the universe gives everyone around me a better experiences than me #i feel like im screaming that im here please pay attention #and nothing #i talk and my voice gets ignored or i get talked over #i post online to try and start conversations or make friends and i just get ignored #like do i exist at all to anyone else but myself #im trying to reach out and make friends but none of the ppl i wanna make friends with seem interested in having a conversation with me #i add all these people to discord and message them all the time #but nothing gets passed me sending them messages no one ever fucking messages me first #it feels like no one thinks about me and i dont matter #literally no one gives a fuck what i have to say #or anytime i talked im corrected on SOMETHING i say or i get a belittled in response #i cant do this shit anymore i cant #no one gives a shit about what i have to say and its really coming across that no one likes me #bc if my friends cant text me first or respond to my messages at all #why am i in the wrong feeling like im alone and have no friends when im the only one reaching out ever if i wanna have a conversation #and when i do feel like im allowed to talk i just talk and talk and talk and know the people dont give a shit abt what i have to say #i jsut feel like im here to be talked at and do things for other people and nothing more #that whenever i have an emotion its wrong and i need to bottle it up #and i dont eve get a chance to learn how to manage my emotions bc it feels like im going to get scolded or belittled for feeling things

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spacedlexi · 2 years ago

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thinking about clem vi and minnie

#cant stop thinking about them....the Drama of it all.....the Gay Drama of it all #SORRYYY but like.... vi and minnie only ending their relationship bc vi thought minnie died and couldnt save her and blamed herself.....#vi finding out minnie was traded off by marlon and did not actually die #and finding out shes working for the enemy and vi has to accept the fact that the Real minnie is gone #the way minnie basically called vi a coward implying there mightve been some tension in their relationship(right after re-meeting after 1yr #the weird tension and mental battle between clem and minnie bc they are like 2 sides of the same coin #(and clem is dating her ex and taking her family)#vi reassuring clem that none of this changes her feelings for her and will go to battle against minnie for their friends #vi either getting kidnapped by the delta (bc clem doesnt save her) and brainwashed by minnie to act against her friends and fight clem #vs her saving clem from minnie by shooting her with her own crossbow with no hesitation other than a plead to stop (still makes me scream)#vi not being able to leave minnie alone and injured #brainwashed vi getting blinded in the explosion #ep 4 minnie not hesitating to try to kill vi for tenn #clem and minnie fighting to the Death #minnie being the reason clem gets bit..one last fuck you #vi having to leave clem on the other side of the fence leading to clem getting bit #s4 didnt have to give us one of the gayest drama-iest side plots in a game but it did and i still cant get over it #hehe hehe hehe :) :) :) infested with brain worms #thank u twdg s4 for existing i love u #need to draw more clem/vi/minnie tension #and also clem and minnie fighting i love when they fight #started replaying s4 but im taking it sooooooo sllooowwwlllyy i cant wait to get to ep3 this shit was written specifically for me #it speaks #twdg

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archondorian · 3 days ago

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does anyone know of any witcher fic that includes accurate horse care. asking for a friend

#the witcher #the friend is me.#listen i love yall i do but ive been here for years and have yet to see any witcher fic writer say the words 'hoof pick'#let alone mention a farrier !!#you cant just rub down roach and call it a day. please #girl roach's hooves are in DIRE STRAITS out here #she needs new shoes every 6-8 weeks please god. trim her nails im beging you #and she needs her hooves picked before and after EVERY RIDE. I AINT PLAYING #unless they are ACTIVELY RUNNING FROM DANGER geralt had best be checking her hooves. istg #would yall believe me if i said im not even a horse person. i just grew up in farm country and did 1 week of horse daycamp #anyway. i need someone to discuss with me who we think does the horses hoof care during winters at kaer morhen #bc i dont think all of them do. like its definitely not lambert. obviously. but do we think geralts horse girlism has gone that far.#or does vesemir do it? or eskel? he seems less likely but maybe?#anyway. au where geralt is a witcher and eskel is his go-to farrier for roach. and they fall in love 💖

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secondchoice-ragdoll · 9 months ago

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#T's “what did u call me? do u think whatever that is is hot? okay then good”#i love the tour pic above K!#and i love how they r still plucked abt not being in Dune2 #K the avid winker...#its so cute how T is featured on this album of K's too😭😭😭#T wants to be left alone (on the phone) on her bday and K wants attention... well... ((once again relating to K))#T looked at Ks belly in a suprisingly like? soft way? idk i might have hallucinated that but who knows.#fuck whoever didnt visit K when she would have wanted them to.#its sweet how T visited her! (srsly cant u just communicate who wants what in this situation so its no suprise? ik its hard for them but😭)#T describing Ks party attending habits!!! they know each other soooo well🤭#aaagh how they have to act like they cant easily spend 2 hrs together having fun when they literally cant wipe the smiles off of their faces #(lesbians..... lovesick idiots.......)#oh they r always facetiming! so adorable :(#T was so excited that they r linked! like girl u do not need more confirmation for that research do u?😭#K watching the pod...... my heart......#why dont they just sit closer if they will reach across a whole fucking room to touch eachother?? like it sounds easier for me but u do u!#i really get a kick out of K mentioning TRHPS anytime she does it bc ik it was such a big thing in Ts life and ugh😭#constantly praising each other😭😭😭😭😭 what if i start sobbing huh #well maybe T is trying to get K to learn how to flirt so that she can practice on her? just an idea?😁#K putting her leg up on T?????? hi what? jist sit in the other's lap u creatures... its okay we can all look away for a sec if u need it...#their art! i fucking love it! both of it! its art at its finest🛐 and id kill to see a collection of their drawings bc cmon they r amazing!#its cute how they r talking abt smth and then they go “oh wait we were there together!”#its almost as if they actually spend time hanging out😱 (dont let the police know!!4!4)#“if we were on DR now-” okay but why r u still dreaming of that miss T?🤭🤭🤭 (who could blame her)#them watching the movies the other one recommends is the closest we can get to them watching an actual thing together (outside of NF)#also im so happy T spent time w K on her bday :(((#trixie mattel #katya zamo #tbatb #the brians

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halfdeadwallfly · 21 days ago

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watching my friends spend time together while consistently cancelling plans with me and promising they want to hang out they just cant

#boink #vent post #idk if this counts as a vent #but it /is/ rather self pitying so i thought i may as well be safe #ive stopped asking bc i dont want to be pushy #ofc ik that things happen and sometimes youre just not in a place to be around people. or even certain people #but its just demoralizing when im the only one who ever reaches out #and im never the one who has to cancel #and theyre always with other people anyway #sometimes i think my loneliness is my own fault #i make myself alone and tell myself that no one wants me so i dont have to deal with the confrontation of that being true #but the incidence of relationships that just. drift #maybe its me. maybe its something about me #ive just been trying so hard to get over the fear of reaching out and being the one to approach people #i tell my friends i love them #i ask if they need me to help or to listen or to stay or to go #i really really want to be a good friend #i try not to be too clingy but to also reach out and not make myself retreat because im scared #i just really would like to have a friendship that doesnt feel entirely like me forcing it #i thought i had that with the friend i made at school #but its been starting to feel like shes avoiding me #and i ask if theres something wrong. and she says she would tell me if it was. but then she avoids me and i cant even talk to her at all #i dont know #i dont know what to do

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anxiously-sidequesting · 1 year ago

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I like doomed narratives but my ultimate Wizard101 NPC ending is the Young Wizard living in a nice secluded place with all their friends (all the necromancers, Ceren, Nolan, fuck you Boris you can live outside, Dasein, the Schismist Soldier, Mellori and the Bat) like a little village but they're all roommates and they do things like farming and brewing hot tea on Sundays free from Ambrose and the rest of the damned Spiral

#ik thats a lot of people HALSJDLDHDH #but in my version of Wizard101 that's everyone's ending. they get to heal together #i know i said all of the necromancers but i think i like it better if duncan was like maybe separate #not because i hate him but because im a huge believer of not being able to heal when the person who hurt you is right there #AND EVEN THOUGH WE DIDNT HURT HIM ON PURPOSE we're still a source of his trauma and i cant see duncan living with us right away yknow #like maybe later on in life but i like him better on his own off in the spiral to see the world and humble himself #*with artur and susie because he loves them #BUT YEA my wizard lives with everyone else at the Very End. fuck you ambrose /lh but /srs #the odd ones out honestly are ceren and nolan bc iirc in canon they dont go thru any type of shit. theyre fine #the rest of the group i mentioned have FLASHBACKS. theres some Trauma Periodt. in their cereal for breakfast #but i mean ceren and nolan can come if they want its fine #i MEAN IT about boris he CANNOT COME #yeah i said the schismist soldier. thats just my personal fantasy ik he hates us #here i am saying duncan cant be around us but thr schismist soldier ABSOLUTELY cannot be around us. but in my world he can! im a hypocrite!#itd be funny if he was still like. just a liiitle bit obsessed but its not because of his inferiority and god complexes he's just gay for us #......yeah im biased okay look he's hot leave me alone /lh #wizard101 #w101 #wiz101 #text posts

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echo-s-land · 10 months ago

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It's insane how most of the time I don't get how ppl interact and I also Don't Fucking Care

#vent ig #i wish i could #but unfortunately i havent had the occasion of sharing one of my interest with you in the past three months and when i did it didnt go as i #wanted and now we're supposed to talk through smalltalks except i dont know how to do those so im awkward as hell and unconsciously cut the #short and now im being hated (?) even tho that wasnt my intent #but i guess no matter how trustful i am i just look like a liar #and i cant even bring myself to care bc how am i supposed to explain myself when youre convinced what i say is a lie #we werent even supposed to be this close so sorry if im stiff. i tried to get along but i just cant #the never ending circle between 'i want to have ppl to interact with being alone to experience this world is exhausting and dreadful' and #'im not even remotely interested by any of you'#its different on tumblr bc i can curate my own experience & nobody comes @ me when i dont interact with them for days or weeks (BC IVE GOT #NOTHING TO SAY) and its okay and its normal and we dont have to do the 'hi how are you wyd' script every single time (sure we can check up #on each other once in a while but it doesnt become a script. it feels genuine.)#anyway. im so normal. i can def care about ppl that have never been as insane as me about something we both love(d at some point)#am pretty sure i developed 'i perceived you saying/thinking One(1) bad thing about me and now i dont care at all about your existence' as #a child as a coping mechanism but goddammit i feel like an asshole everytime it happened #i hate feeling apathetic #and i hate lying too so i cant just say shit to reassure them when i dont mean them #cant tell them im sorry about how my behavior is perceived when im so damn tired and would rather they disappear of my life

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thorninyourpaw · 2 months ago

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you ever so attention deprived that you start crying because you posted a picture on twitter that nobody wanted to look at that you thought maybe might finally make someone look at you again

#going from having multiple people trying to Text Me every single time i even posted a photo of my face to posting photos showing off #(not a nude) and having absolutely nothing and also in general being completely ghosted by almost every songle friend you have incl your #best friend that you've clung to and loved for two years that would call you gorgeous and now doesnt even answer the phone #yknow it does not great things to your brain #and i feel so fucking lonely and a couple internet friends have said they care n love me n i love them but it doesnt help bc every single #irl i had isnnow just gone i guess. i find it incredibly difficult to talk to ppl only online and like i have no life irl anymore.#nothing. no one. and then i just feel so guilty bc i know there are people that care i lnow mike cares but he's so far away from me #and i just want my friends to think im pretty again i just want someone to tell me they want to kiss me i want someone to kiss me i want a #compliment just anything i feel so alone and im not used to this at all at least when i didnt have friends i could at least still get sex bc #im fucking easy or whatever and now i do everything i can and i get nothing i genuinely just cant do this

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